May 11, 2013 marked the end of a wonderful, fulfilling season of life. I graduated (with honors I might add) from the Assemblies of God Theological Seminary with a Master of Arts in Christian Ministry. This dream-come-true could never have never happened without the support of my hubby - David. I think he always felt a little sad that I didn't get the opportunity to go to college. We married two months after my High School graduation and marriage and motherhood took precedence over education. Not that I cared at the time. I was living my dream.
But dreams have a way of changing. I grew more confident. I embraced the gifts and callings of God on my life in new ways. The kids grew up and moved on with their lives. New opportunities opened for me and I took advantage of those opportunities.
So here I am - 57 years old with a Master's degree and no job in sight. People keep asking me what I'm going to do when I "grow up." I wish I knew. I've heard fiction writers say that they don't always know what a character is going to do until they do it. I feel like that is the way my life has unfolded as well.
My first class at AGTS was taught by a wise mentor/teacher, Dr. Carolyn Tennant. Dr. Carolyn reminded us that we must move and change through the seasons of life. She said that life is always in a state of flux and that we will never be able to "keep up" with the changes - it's best to just go with them - following the wind of the Spirit - trusting the good hand of the Sovereign Lord.
She told us the story of the Celtic monks who fully embraced this way of life. They would build a one person coracle and set off in the open sea with no rudder or even an oar to guide them - only a sail and the wind of the Spirit. She asked us if we were willing to take an adventure - to set off in our own kind of coracle and trust that somehow or another, we would end up in the right place.
And that is how my future feels right now - adrift, but not without direction. Though I may not be able to see how this chapter of my life will unfold - I know the One who does know - and I plan to enjoy the ride.
